finally, its time for some relaxation. maybe not. after all the tests and presentations, finally its holiday time! yeah! but atc is coming up. sigh!

poly life is not really what i expected it to be, but i got use to it. all the free time you got while waiting for your lesson. sometimes, without laptop, i will really get bored to tears. now its a 3 week break before restarting my engine for the next term.

with the atc coming up, i doubt i'll have any time for games. but its the same lah, i'll definitely find some time to play. hahaha.

11:56 PM

its time to update my blog, as she keep "reminding" me to. -.-

there's nothing much to say, but i'm getting more and more busy as the days goes by. firstly is the term test, then the holiday trainings and after that the Sec 2 ATC. there's alot of things going on and on. hope that the atc will go smoothly.

have been playing mahjong consecutively for 3 days. oh-my-god. i can't believe the amount of money i lost. sigh..

1:18 PM

i can't seem to find the reason or mood to blog this past one month. just dun feel like it.

one thing lead to another. all these happened suddenly that i didn't realise it. sigh..

trying to sort out my feelings these days. when i finally did, i tried. but i failed. maybe its the wrong time. i don't know. its one of my biggest regret that i escape from my feelings in the first place. but its too late for me right now.

maybe its really meant to be like this. its alot of maybes, with no answers to it. when i finally thought i got the answer, i just can't let go of it. what the hell am i thinking anyway?!

did i do the right thing? its the first time my heart really felt this way. i dun have the mood to do anything right now. i regretted what i said. fuck. i thought i can handle this, but i can't.

7:59 PM